What a girl needs

Wondering why the hell I have such needs. Just talked to the X. He is on a business trip and was just desperate to get to a hotel with a shower. It made me realize how complex my needs were compared to his primal ones. Not to say that he doesn't have lonely moments too, I know he does.

When dinner is on the table and the kids won't eat, every mother mentions starving kids in Africa. I feel that way with my emotional desires. Who the hell cares? Is there not so much more to life than this self indulgent piece? Has it not caused me and every other person I know, so much grief and trouble?

Tonight is bad. I feel lonely and needy. I reached out to the X and those needs were somewhat met. Friends too, talking always helps, but I hate being that person, " oh poor me." It feels weak and kind of pathetic. I am lucky to have a good relationship with him. He is still the coolest guy I know, and my ally in many ways.

Tomorrow will be better, it always is.