Tunes

Sometimes I feel like a teenager. The thing that does it the most, is listening to music and having it become so emotional. I still can't listen to certain tunes. I cry, its pathetic really. But I'm amazed at how it gets to me.

Missing him, asking why, pining, contemplating, these are all the thoughts that come into my mind listening to some songs. I can't listen to anything he turned me on to. Then there are these ones that just make me weep.

I have actually had friends (and the X) tell me to listen to happier music. I contended that sad music made me happy. But it's not true and I'm not sure what to do about it. I think when I listen to those songs I feel taken back to the time when it was all hopeful. And now, knowing there is no hope, I just cry.