Major Realizations

Sometimes you forget what someone is really about. Kind of similar to the way women forget about the torment and pain of childbirth. Similar. To think you can get back into something and completely forget the bad part about it.

I'm smartening up about what it means to have the X as a friend. Yes, I do depend on him, but there are certain ways in which he will never change. One of these reminders popped up recently, let's just call it a case of inflexibility, where he restated one of his lines from 2 years ago.

I realized that he hides within this communications "message track". It is his safety balloon. His guidelines to life, even if they end up leaving out others ie. exwife and kids. Okay, okay, he's not a bad guy, in the least, but to have to brutally remember that this is how it was when we were married and this is how it evermore shall be.

It doesn't matter that the ensuing events of the last year should have shaken things up majorly, as they did for me, they obviously didn't for him. A major realization, a reminder of why I left, and I good way to move on armed with that knowledge.