There is only one way to put this, the thing, the love that has held me prisoner for over a year, has been put to an end. I've walked away, I've withdrawn.

I've spoken before of situations where no good can come, I tried, no good came. I went back into a situation where I thought I could be mature and deal with a friendship, even when for me, it was so much more. It wasn't that a mutual feeling didn't exist, it just wasn't the same on both sides. Shall we say, a difference in opinion?

Either way, it hurts. I was ready for this to happen, now I feel like crying, my lips are curling, but I can't cry. I guess that means I was ready for it. The truth is, I just want to move on. And ultimately have some more space, emotionally mainly.

I miss him already. But it is what it is. He is just a guy for crying out loud. This is nothing compared to what I've been through. I can do this.

This is where one of those cliches begs to be played. That what don't kill me, will only make me stronger, please hurry up now, cause I can't wait no longer. Should I tell Kanye he's part of the official quote now? It's the impatient part that gets me.