As above, so below

In terms of yoga and Eastern thought, I turn my mind to chakras. It may sound hokey, but this school of thought connects sexuality to creativity within the Swadisthana chakra. Meaning that in terms of energies, they come from the same place in our bodies.

This explains a lot of what has been going on in terms of the connections I make with people (men). I now feel free to explore and ask the question "Am I confusing sexual energy with creative energy?"

I don't doubt, as many women do, that I depend on sexuality to get what I want. In these contemporary times, I think we call on it less, but it's there regardless. If I even remotely like someone, this comes out, usually in the form of flirtation.

Now I feel I should take a step back, look at the big picture, and determine whether the guy I'm feeling connected to, is really in the realm or even deserving, of my sexual energy. And what I see is that connectedness does not always spell "boyfriend or partner".

This isn't something I had ever considered, but there you have it. A truth that I am using to create this new hierarchy of friendships in my world.